The Stabilization Of Flight

It's almost 2 months since I was trying to adjust myself to form 6, unwillingly, this left me no choice, but now I got through the melting point.

Firstly, the subjects, in the order according to my favourite:


1st: Pengajian Am
To me, it is known as general knowledge of Malaysia's politics, it's the only real thing I can clearly feel which happens from time to time, changes that soon became histories. Humans should learn what the world really feels. The story-telling session from teachers are attracting. :)


2nd: Chemistry (If I took Biology, it would be at this place.)
Easy understand than what I expected so far. 90% of understanding. The molecules and atoms could enhance one's imagination and of course to solve the mystery behind all chemicals.


3rd: Mathematics T
Extended version of Add Maths, and numbers are back again. = = It is not the easiest subject among all anymore. Whatever it is, it all counts.


If according to the papers,  Pengajian Am Kertas 2 will be at between this gap.


4th: MUET
Well, I have to admit that I thought it is the subject that I can fill my percentage of confidence to the top but it turns out harder. Especially the harvesting of own ideas and my twisted-tongue speaking skills.


5th: Physics
My most respectful subject among all because of what it contains (the concept of some sort of structural mechanism, movement of an object and forces). The only thing drives me to this is in the future, I can create cars and guns which are impossible to me. In big contrast to Chemistry subject, 80% of not understanding. That is truly a tragic.


For those subjects that I don't take tuition, I just really hope I can handle them myself, if I can do it, that will be pretty impressing but the most important thing is not to ponteng frequently because we will miss a lot of lessons. The consequences of ponteng are quite irritating. Plus lack of sleep, it is challenging my mental's limitation.

Speaking about tuition, it will always comes to my "Tuition for Tuitions", meaning teaching to earn money and pay for my tuition fees. That is quite a cycle but do not break my alternative source of money for other usage. "Kids, please hold on to it no matter what."


My daily routine:

My mom sends me to and fro school after she became a Q-dees kindergarten teacher. Everyday's lunch is either economic rice or chicken rice. Ain't that nice? In fact, taking public transport from there is so convenience. Add on, I've got my P license already!!!! And I'm fear to drive!!!!! :P


Lastly, I would like to say that I have more new friends :D The ionic bonds between me and my friends become stronger. I just hope that someday we will become covalent bonds.

The 3rd layer of 2011

The last and also thickest layer of this year.

Form 6, a start of tertiary education. Sacrifice a lot of entertainment. Finally I realised that Batu 8 is one of the rapid bus route. U70. My new transport. I can lepak everywhere after school or ponteng. It's definitely a nice thing. A new path has opened. Meet new enemies in new form. My fear. I'm gonna hold on to it, no matter what.

Something wrong and evil are playing with my mind, being negative and mourn for unacceptable stuffs. Sometimes you will think that nothing in this world suits you the most.


It's time to look for how 'big boys' usually act and try to move on in that way instead. Get used to facts. Overcome the beginning of the school life, wipe away the "hate to go school" feel. I will be using "It wasn't that bad after all" eventually. "Do whatever I like and don't care much" will be my weapon to win the fight.

It will be just like "same old days".

PS: I believe in the "pre-unite" of school mates.


My insomnia sickness seems treated by dreams. Those dreams make me don't wanna wake up and go school. Some dreams make me think that it's repeated scenes. The story lines of dreams can be very random. Dreams just keep creating infinitely. Dreamology could be the best to study.


Eliminable task: The tough journey of getting P license. If others can do it, why not me?

Identity Upgraded

Back-to-back events in recent week:

8th May 


On Mother's Day, me and my family went to Nando's for dinner. This time, my treat. :D Well, first time. To spend a little more of my salary. XD We ordered 1/4 chicken and sidelines, but unfortunately, I don't feel nice. The sour taste almost made me puked. Seriously I don't have this horrible feeling before. That was scary. :( It's like having Sour Themed Meal. Anyway, this celebration is special for me.

Upgraded to: "Belanjawan"




9th May

Woah, I have no idea how fast my form 6 life started without my expectation. Probably after registered and straight away became a student of SMK Batu Lapan. Orientation Week at first. I'm afraid of this school feeling. Not yet prepared in new environment. Of course, I will be used to it someday. Many familiar faces. :O Anyway, for boys, the school uniform features White Shirt, White Long Pants and Black Shoes. HOW COOL CAN THAT BE!!!! I mean no more green pants. Good change. Love it.

Co-curriculum is a must in order to enter local U.

Going to decrease my online period soon. Attending tuitions. Still can't believe what's happening now.

Upgraded to: Lower Six student.



13th May 


First driving lesson started today. Actually I'm not really feel comfortable about the paddle. It's different from the game at arcade (usually I will crash a lot of things). A little push of the paddle is enough to make the car moves. The road and cars scare me to hell. What if I hit people and cars accidentally?

I am so jealous of the good drivers out there. Too bad I'm not one of them. This was my nightmare. :"(


The biggest fear is when the car shaking and engine's off suddenly due to my one mistake. Feels like the car is gonna explode. Seriously, sad. :(


Upgraded to: Learner in driving. 

Meet The Narrow Route of "Down"town

Dissect what's inside the kid's brain, reveal what has polluted this mind of ocean.

Here's the brief result in what we have researched:

1) Not active in sports
2) Talk softly/ Doesn't has loud voice
3) Not brave enough/ Being a coward
4) Hunch back
5) Being introverted
6) Get panic easily
7) No socializing skills
8) Not assertive/ Unable to decide quickly
9) Doesn't take things seriously
10) Give up easily
11) Bad communication/ Twisted-tongue
12) Is afraid of dark since small
13) Weak/ Not powerful/ Not strong enough
14) Not "man" enough
15) Petty mind
16) Get disappointed easily
17) Afraid to speak out own ideas
18) Think too much/ Always regret on own decision
19) Love to hide his own real feelings


And... owns a bone-touchable-skinny body!!!!!! (the arrangement is not according to the critical levels) 


This initial investigation revealed that these problems have their own strength and abilities (Not to say that their roles) to affect this kid in many things that happen in his life. What you saw just now is probably befriended with this poor kid long long time ago. Whether he like it or not, isn't it a fate that brought friends close together?

Optimus Prime: "Fate rarely call upon us at a moment of our choosing." Too bad this boy didn't has chance to choose.

In this case, a biological doctor has claimed his friends as Invisible Parasites sp. and bold estimates that these are not his friends, but used the term "enemies" to describe them. His enemies can evolve from time to time. As long as this kid exposed to all of them, the more he feels that it's part of him, and can never be separated physically or chemically (Perhaps not easy).

Doctor labelled this case as Highly Inflammable and Danger.

A psychiatrist proved that somewhere in this kid's brain, he thinks that all of these doesn't really matter to him. All he could think is to gain is always better than to lose. The problems are not what he can see by their camouflage appearances. Eventually, these will be the motive for him to do anything unexpected and at that time, he has no one to blame but himself. This makes him gone so far without realise. The psychiatrist also believe :"There is more to come, my friend. Prepare yourself for the worst"



Advices: He probably needs a new start of life. He needs to eliminate all of them immediately and Take Back His Life to normal again.

The Turning Point

Those were what happened in the last week of April:



Received my L license, a horrible one. My face is blur and thanks to the web cam. To be honest, I felt grateful because I'm not the one who got a terrible one. :D I can now only study my lessons' time table, unfortunately not yet started (I'm not really prepared yet), but it is surely overlapping with my form 6's school life during the 16hour-lessons. I can't wait to finish it till the end.


For now, I started my jogging life but I hope I can keep maintaining this exercise every week and gain stamina. I didn't know how I came out with this idea. This is not a lazy person like me usually do. The boredom is definitely the motivator. I suppose my only jogging partner, Hau Nung can convince me on doing this. I mean he can be my personal trainer anytime. :P At the very end of time, perhaps I can tell the benefits of jogging.

Anyway, the line "How To Gain Six Packs" always caught my attention. XD I want to gain my weight, I wouldn't want 50++ kg, at least 60++ kg can calm me down and not to be a underweight citizen based on BMI.




Well, there are many muscles in our body, I can sense that none of them can increase my body weight now, the bones can do a very impressive work on increasing my mass too or should I try sipping on Appeton Weight Gain (Adult) everyday? :D


Experienced sickness again. One time in a year seems like is a must for me. I hate sickness but it loved me. I know there's 3 stages that normally happen on me, I experienced it before:

SORE THROAT -----> FLU -------> COUGH 

This is a set. Since one sickness is lead to another. Go through all these, you'll be free.



My sister is back from Penang!!!! :D She is possibly staying here for almost 4 months before going back there. Her return is totally in time and it will be the noisiest moment ever. Taking exactly what my sister took in form 6. It's good enough because at least I can refer something to her.


Well, to be honest, the fun time is now over for me. It's not short but anyway, farewell to my empty life.

The 2nd layer of 2011

There's still not much to say, but I have to keep updating, it's the only thing that will keep myself "updated" from time to time.

Feels like almost out of my salary, alternative way is to earn some extra pennie$. As in Resident Evil: Afterlife, Alice uses her Dual 12-Gauge Sawed-Off Shotgun (according to my new favourite web IMFDB.ORG), I call it "Penny Gun" since her hobby is collecting coins to fit into the gun as bullets and start shooting zombies. Conclusion, pennie$ can be used as self-defence. :D

My first tuition class started.. hmm.. pretty well :P Neither communicate with children nor teaching is my advantage and dealing with Standard 2, 3, 4, & 5 students in the same class :O That required a technique to handle them at the same time :S I just hope they can improve or at least learn something from me. (winks)

Well, thanks for hiring me Aunt, but I hope you don't change your mind when seeing this:

I get C for my 1119 in SPM. Haha.

Add on, gaining driving license is a long long process to me:

#1: 5 hours of Kursus Teori
#2: Undang Test Pass and "L" license is up for grabs
#3: 6 hours of Kursus Teori dan Amali
#4: Driving Practice n-hours Pending
#5: Driving Test. "P" license is up for grabs

Hope can settle it all before entering my form 6. I AM THRILLED ABOUT MY FORM 6IX!!!!



PS: "Thank you so much for not trying too hard to tear my life apart from me. As in return, you have no idea how much chances you've gave me to plot against you."

Randomly random

"This is a true story about a young boy who experienced the peak of boredom and starting to doubt that if there's another evil side of him exists all the times. While he is struggling to see the true face of himself, he has created his own weapons for self-defence. He is proud of his own creation after all. At this particular time, the crime rate of his town has increased eventually. When people soon discovered the truth behind all these, this boy has upgraded from a Killer to a Monster." This is a sad story indeed. 


What a great opening!!! HOHO :P


It is not easy to lose a fight in our life, maybe a few thin branches will enough to back us up again. Yes, if you found something worth to fight for, it will burn the fuel of your life. It is somehow similar to: Burn all the fats and gain abs!!!!!! XD  Many people think that they know their health very well, they are all wrong. Even some doctors need to know more abour their health. Mine, I just can't feel myself anymore.


Well, switching gear, the recent news was the SPM result. I don't really care much about that before I know my result but isn't that a selfish thought?? I mean I don't feel sad for what I get but I felt totally ashamed and feel guilty of failing to make my parents proud in front of everyone. SORRY~~  My fault :( I PROMISED I WILL NOT DO THAT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!



Even at that moment, I thought I will be one of the 17 top students in the hall to climb upstairs. What a bullshit!!!! It seems that STPM is my next exit, it's a all new start in another SMK. Malay school life rocks!!!! YEEHAAAAA ~~~~

A little adjustment to fit in a new place, I don't care about companion anymore, cause I don't always get one. Since that large amount of my friends had decided to go college/started long time ago, I could be the "special" one. HAHA. Goodluck everyone!!!!


It's glad to see progression in life, proceeding every level steps by steps but my fear's everywhere. This shit is following me unreasonably. However, just face everything with it because what will come, will come, it's the matter of soon or later.

Go With The Flow

As usual, TRY to make myself busy to kill all the boringness. I have no idea how long I can stand this fake life.

Anyway, I'm glad that my friends all came back from their "heavy duty" PLKN safe and sound, but I think they enjoyed it much after all. Now, guess what, they came back just in time for..
THE REVEAL OF SPM 2010 RESULT!!!!!!!! 


Exact 4 months after the SPM starts, here comes the SHOCK. Basically, We Were Warned. :P

Perhaps it's the best way to gather students around in a school. It acts as a reducing agent for us to reunite. Long time never see the school and all my buddies. :"(

Anyway, felt disappointed for my result. =.= Not really sad but worst than I expected. HAHA.


Last week, I registered for the driving license. The undang thingy. Trust me, you don't want to what they've done to make me ended up taking this shit alone. Ptff!!!! :(  Keyword: Selfish.

By the way, I hope it all works well. Cross finger.


From this day to the day I start my form 6, between this time gap, I really hope something good could turn up surprisingly for me.

Well, it seems nothing's better than hard work.

Penang Trip

This school holidays, me and my family went Penang to see my sister performs in live. HAHA XD

Getting there by long-travel bus: PLUSLINER. Trust me, it's a long trip.





After across the bridge, we took a cab to our hotel B SUITE. 



We spent our night here.


Comfy~



Going around the island leading by my sister's boyfriend. THANKS VERY MUCH :D

We did not went to much famous tourist places but all the old buildings are magnificent and that's why PENANG known as UNESCO World Heritage Site on July 7, 2008 instead of "The Pearl Of Orient". I LOVED PENANG!!!

Anyway, we dont't get any RM3-Char Kuey Tiao in KL, right?


Dewan Sri Penang, where the place my sister perform Modern Dance. It's like a simple concert organized by Chinese Society in a university. RM8 per entry, it is really WORTH than watching a movie in cinema at a standard price. REALLY!!!!! Students are singing, dancing, acting and they have much more talents to be discovered.





The next day, we visited Gurney Plaza and Queensbay Mall before we went back home. It was a fun trip though.



My deepest condolences for the Japan Quake victims. They doesn't have to end this way. 

I AM NUMBER FOUR

"There were nine of us. Three are dead.... I guess you know the next line I'm gonna say. :P


Hmm.. Aliens (basically humans from another planet) who have superpowers, it is not a new thing for us but YOU'VE GOT TO see the INTENSE alien-gunfight scenes at the end of the movie. It is amazingly awesome!!!!!!! Well, I can say it is pretty much Michael Bay's.


Watch it if you like: Twilight (2008), Jumper (2008), and of course the original novel titled I Am Number Four by Pittacus Lore.


Went Pavilion for this movie (which is strongly recommended) with Blake and Fiona. Experienced 6-station Amazing Race in one day like never before. Totally fun but my leg pain getting worst which can be defined as The next level of pain.

Exploring many new places by sitting public rails according to Blake's guides. Let me try this: "I Am A Tourist From China." LOL! :P Taking HD pictures everywhere like a tourist (ignoring people's eye-watching), playing fish-eye effect and panorama "paranormal" with my new camera. It just got warmed up. It's all about the texture colour that produced by All Of The Lights. :D




Anyway, I feel energized and fresh every time I went KL. I've spent some quality time "studying" city life while at the same time, waiting for my SPM result, as everyone of my friends do.

The Revival Of My Life Thru My Blog (or vice versa)

March, is a new beginning for me.

Well to be honest, it doesn't seems really relaxing after ending my job. I bet it could take more time. But now, my condition is bad. I scare I'll get sick again.

1) Not enough sleep
2) My leg still pain
3) Whenever I look at those people who are working, I think that I'm useless.

My fear to take a bus, I hope it's decreasing. I still loving you, rapidKL.

That day I revisited the store, I just can't accept that I'm no longer a staff there. I'm a customer. That makes me.... sad. :"(

Better I skip this sad story.  

My mom told me to not to spend my money recklessly, can't simply buy anything I like such as some expensive stuffs that I wanted long time ago. Obviously, that means my wishlist don't turn out so good. Missed Jay Chou's concert 2times. :S

Just so you know, my stories couldn't get any better. 

But at least, I still spending my money for something else. (Winks)

Welcome to my digital family, babe. 


It's originated from Digital Mall, PJ. OLYMPUS 7020, RM550 (RM500 of my salary, RM50 from my dad), 12MP, 4Gb Memory Card. LOL! That's cool XD


Woah, I could never thinking about spending my money, and that is dangerous. A new job is recommended for my situation now. Believe me, doing banking things are fun.

Planning is fun enough when we doesn't know if it can become reality.

So take my little advice, don't do things according to plans like THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU do because sometimes we never know where Matt Damon is. When you do, he has kicked your ass.




ps: My future has been ADJUSTED.